Breaking the silence of our daughter's addiction

On January 26, 2020 I walking and found a quarter, next to the quarter was a recovery token, for those that don't know what this is, it is a token with the serenity prayer on it. I believe it was a sign from my daughter that she was proud of the speech I gave at a women's recovery center. I feel so blessed to have been given this sign, it was like she was saying "Mom I'm good, I'm whole again and I have recovered. Crystal so badly wanted to find sobriety, she did for 16 months, until the devil showed his face one last time. To anyone reading this blog, the next second is not promised to anyone of us. Live for today, do not get drugs off the street, they are and will kill you. Love and Light to all.

My daughter has no more chance's of recovery, she passed away on May 23, 2019, every parent's worst nightmare. Approximately at 915 I received a call from my daughter's boy friend and he said Mom it does not look good. We were about 20 minutes away from her and all I could think of was please God don't let her die, please do not let this be the end of her story. It felt like it took a hour to get there. We get to the house and there about 6 police cars, the ambulance had all ready left, the police told us to come to the house first before we went to the hospital. All I could think of was we were to late she had all ready died.  We ran in the house to find our grand daughter who was only 7 at the time to be standing in the kitchen, I did everything in my power to fight back the tears, as I held her in my arms, she said "You still have me, bubby, sissy and Brodie, my poor 7 year old grand daughter had witnessed her death and had all ready known she was gone from this...